His Memories are So Precious
My Dearmost Guru Maharaja, Om Nitya-Lila Pravaista Om Visnupada Astottara-sata Sri Srila Bhakti Vijnana Bharati Goswami Maharaja... On this most auspicious day of your Divine appearance, I pray to submit my most affectionate dandavat pranam at the dust of your lotus feet... Due to my gross ineptitude, how may I speak some glorification of you? There is the knowing with great comfort in my cold heart, that on this beautiful day, hundreds of your dear Disciples will be sharing their sweet offerings and memories of you...From all I have learned and read of you, they hold you in their highest esteem, speaking so fondly of you, of your compassion and sweetest nature.
My memories with you are very few due to my great misfortune, but they are very precious and I hold on to them very dearly. One merciful day I was sent a piece of your cloth from dear Vasanti Dasi , this feels like my lifeline to you... I pray to you on this day to learn more and more of your Glories by the mercy of the vaisnavas and vaisnavis, praying that you'll reside in my heart, and that I will know you are there...that I can praise you to all whom i meet. I pray to you also Guru Maharaj that I may chant the Holy Names as an offering to you and to Sri Sacinandana Gaurahari, and I become evermore attached to you and Them.
I pray also that I may come to Sridhama Mayapura for pilgrimage to your samadhi, so I may offer you, in person, unlimited dandavat pranams and learn how to become the servant of the servant of the servant of Srimati Radhika...
Please please forgive all of my offences. Please please forgive all my doubts I had of you recently... I am begging for your sweet mercy on this day my Guru Maharaj. your errant, but always aspiring, servant Candrika Devi Dasi (Wales, UK)