Grateful for my God-family
I offer my most humble and respectful obeisances at the dust of the beautiful lotus feet of my diksa gurudev, Nitya lila Pravista Om Visnupada Paramahamsa Sri Srimad Bhakti Vigyan Bharati Goswami Maharaj, also at the lotus feet of Nitya lila pravista Om Visnupada Paramahamsa Sri Srimad Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada who mercifully brought me to this path and to Nitya lila Pravista Om Visnupada paramahamsa Sri Srimad Bhaktivedanta Narayana Goswami Maharaj who has helped me so much with his sweet mercy and instruction, even though I never met neither of them physically. And also to all the vaisnavas who have helped me appreciate even a little the inmense gift I have recieved from Gurudev such as Srimati Syamarani didi (from whom I recieved the opportunity to meet my Srila Gurudev), Sripad Bhaktivedanta Siddhanti Maharaj, Kishori Mohan and Sudevi, Sripad Tapasvi Maharaj... and to all members of this family of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu who were, are and will be. Although I am very low and fallen, I have gotten such an incredible family of god-brothers and sisters who are really so dedicated to serving the lotus feet of the pure vaisnavas, that just by witnessing their character and lifestyle I cant help but feeling really low, but also inmensely happy of having them in my life because by their example I learn how a true disciple behaves, as they share with me the love they have for Srila Gurudev, and give me such invaluable inspiration to be also like them some day, a sincere servant. I am not able to appropiately glorify my Gurudev or any pure vaisnava, I just can say I am inmensely grateful with them for saving me and giving me a spiritual family from which I can learn how to love them and hopefully one day I will be able to even make a sincere and heart-felt attempt to really glorify them as they do. Srila Gurudeva has shown me his inmense mercy as the song by Vaisnava Das says: Ajacita mo heno, patita heri jo pahu, Jaci deyala harinama "Seeing a person as fallen as me, this personality voluntarily gave me harinama, even without my asking". What can my wretched and deluded intelligence possibly ask for, that really benefits me? Nothing at all.
It is all by my Gurudeva's inmense mercy I am walking this path today along with this wonderful family, and I just wish to learn the art of love from them, so I may someday overcome the cheating propensity in my heart and simply engage in sincere loving service at the lotus feet of my dear Srila Gurudev and of all the Vaisnavas. Please, may the readers of this offering bestow their loving blessings upon me so I can learn by your example and association how to serve my Gurudev. An insignificant aspirant of being the dog of the servant of the servant of my Srila Gurudev and of all the Vaisnavas. Indira Dasi