And then he looked at me, and in clear English said - "You must know your own adhikara."
His words profoundly impacted me. Every day for a year, I could hear him saying this inside me, and I could feel his presence. And finally I understood. It became very clear to me that I did not at all have the adhikara for sannyasa, and I became peaceful within myself as I recognized and accepted where I was actually located.